I guess sometimes I get lonely
Of course I only really think about it when I'm alone. Maybe just the silent situation makes me think about why it's so silent. I sometimes think about what other people might be doing, although it's not realistic, I always imagine them having much more fun than I am. And then of course I start to think about how much more fun they have without me there. Is it quieter, or louder? Is everybody laughing, or are they doing business as usual, I guess I'll never know because I'm not there.
Then I start to think about those people, I probably shouldn't though
I always wonder if they even want to be around me. I never invite myself to places or ask people if they want to hang out, partly because I'm afraid they don't want me there. And it's not that I'm afraid of being cast out or I'm afraid of not being liked, I just don't want to be where I'm not wanted. If I'm being a nuisance or if they just don't want me to be there, I don't want to be there. If they don't